Wow - 2 blogs in one week.

Not much new from my last posting other than I've decided to privately document the ebb and flo of my emotions. I didn't find it terribly difficult to write about the antatomical changes, the physical side effects of treatment nor treatment itself, but in order to allow my emotions to be fluid, I need to be in a safe place - internet wouldn't fit that description.

For me, the time has come to deal with the loss of a breast, what it means to be a woman, and my own worthiness. I know that my hope and strength comes from God although I have forgotten that many times on this journey (climb). The beauty around and within me are is causing every cell in my body to giggle and dance. My cells have not giggled for sometime.

I was given a gift certificate from a fellow classmate, Satish, to the Chico Spa in Bremerton; Dr. Cathy Rogers, ND, has been in practice for 27 years - I consider her to be an elder in naturopathic medicine; much healing took place for me emotionally during my visit. The dry lymphatic brushing awoke my immune system, the sauna released toxins from my body, the healing herbs of the steam room soothed my lungs; with each sweat droplet, I envisioned the toxins (and emotions) releasing through my pours. I believe I made peace with my scar. In fact, I call my scar harmony. With harmony as my guide, I strive to keep my mind, body, and spirit in alignment.

The seaweed and herb bath was relaxing, detoxing and insightful. It was during this time that my cells began to giggle and dance. As I layed in this wonderful warm bath, it was the leaves of a tree -blowing gently in the wind - that amused me. The leaves looked like they were laughing. I mentioned this to Dr. Cathy and she said, "what does that experience mean to your body?" And with no hesitiation, I told her my cells were giggling and moving all about.

Well my side is bothering me, so time to relax on couch and put my arm up.

May your cells giggle and dance.

Love Debbie

Where has all the time gone? I don't know if anyone is still out there reading my blog since my last writing (Aug 25th).

Following my infection from radiation (axillary region), then I got a UTI, then some type of virus. All in all it was about 6 weeks and my energy was zapped. Needless to say, these ailments emotionally and mentally knocked me down. It's apparant that I have some emotional healing to be done. For the 8.5 months of treatment, my emotions seemed to be mild then they rose to the surface and have been causing me all kind of havoc. Nor do I handle stress as well as I used to.

I'm in my 4th week of school and enjoying it thoroughly; I am taking two classes and that is perfect for me.

That's all for now.
Debbie